I apologize to the Masses.. or the two people that read this..

Well as some smart alecy girl has commented, yes I have been remiss in my blogging of late.. There are a few reasons for this.. I haven't been sleeping much, tension has been mounting between my roommates and myself...
and then this smart alecy girl that I can't get my mind off of...
I'm more than a little bit undone, I'll admit it..
I've never found someone that I've considered my equal, my worthy adversary, my arch rival... Call it hubris, call it arrogance, call it elitism...But I never really thought that I would ever encounter someone that is as I am...And now, it would seem that I have...
it's a startling thing to have your mind opened and your tongue tied both at once..
I can see so many things when I close my eyes, and when I bend to type.. Nothing... Like seeing heaven, and having no frame of reference to relate the miraculous.. It's just about one thousand times more frustrating then knowing what you want to draw and being powerless to summon it up from page and pencil.. So please be lenient in these next few attempts, as they will undoubtedly be like the first shaking steps of a new born...
for that is how I feel... Like my old self has burned away.. Things I thought long lost are once again within me..
I feel like a little kid staring in wonder at the world..
I feel new
I feel awake
I feel alive